I bought a 1975 AMC Matador Station Wagon as my first car.
Joined on 7/24/12
Posted by JGZILLA98 - September 25th, 2018
I feel its time for a fresh start but first I need to explain myself.
When I first joined this site a lot happened in that time span, I was also very young when I first got here. I know made a lot of people angry and disgusted with my childish behavior such as lies, fights, mindless banter and faking mental illness... Well almost I do suffer from a known condition by the name of "Asperger syndrome" a condition on the autism spectrum, with generally higher functioning.
People with this condition may be socially awkward and have an all-absorbing interest in specific topics (mine being vintage muscle cars and things involving them which mostly is film based). In simple terms I am functional in some areas but struggle a lot in others, part of the reason I would flip shit every week when I was 14 and years to come.
Due to unfortunate circumstances I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder when I was 16 and it hasn't gotten better... when I turned 18 things got heated real fast between my and my loved ones who did nothing but try their hardest to help me. Most of them have left me now to move on in their lives and I don't hate them for it because they have the right to be free and happy. I have regained trust from most of them but not all of them...
I also realized I have a hoarding problem (mostly just childhood toys, drawings and photos) I Kept them to remind me that I can be happy again like I was when I was a...
I was so careless and reckless and would give anything to go back and do it right. I would often do things on impulse without thinking of the disasters and repercussions that will come my way.
I also have been struggling to maintain solid income ever since I graduated high school a few months ago and keeping a job is hard for me given my condition and I am employed again as I write this but unsure for how long.
I have also taken on hobbies and activities to keep myself from getting depressed and I am for once happy in my life... But I know I can make it better.
I took some time to study film and editing, I made a short film that I may or may not finish but had fun making it. It's nothing special and to be honest very low grade but it really does not matter to me as I had too much fun making it and felt good that someone was proud of me when they saw it.
I will post it soon if possible.
I think the saddest part of all this was how much I let go... including my mental and worst of all my physical health. I gained a little over 100 pounds (current weight: 267) the last time I posted on here and now I am struggling to keep my self active and alert along with getting proper if any sleep at all.
The nightmares and memories of my younger self still haunt me to this day... Nothing but bitter hatred towards the world and those around me.
I plan to come back here now and then to see what has changed but if you guys are not interested in my projects, struggles or me in general I won't have an issue, it's your right to do as you please. If you guys are willing to support me, at least acknowledge I am here breathing and watching out for a state of peace then that is all I could ask for from you kind souls.
Please be respectful if possible but I won't force you either.
As of now I am nothing more than a pheonix... Rising from the ashes... To be reborn... Eyes finally opened
3:04 AM 9/25/2018
Posted by JGZILLA98 - December 19th, 2015
Anyone who sees this may not remember me but it has been a while since I have done anything so time to see what is new.
For those that do remember me I am sorry I was gone for so long as I suffered from extreme deep depression last time I was here but I am better now and hope to maybe post stuff again.
Posted by JGZILLA98 - September 14th, 2013
In 1984 Pontiac released a car known as the Fiero which lasted from 1984 to 1988.
A total of 370,168 Fieros were produced over the relatively short production run of five years; by comparison, 163,000 Toyota MR2s were sold in its first five years. At the time, its reputation suffered from criticisms over performance, reliability and safety issues. Today, however, compared to less adventurous attempts at two-seaters such as the Ford EXP, the unique style of the Fiero compared to other American cars has left it a cult following as a collectible car. It remains a popular chassis for rebodies and electric conversions.
The 1984 Fiero was the Official Pace Car of the Indianapolis 500 for 1984, beating out the new 1984 Chevrolet Corvette for the honor.
The word "fiero" means "proud" in Italian, and "wild", "fierce", or "ferocious" in Spanish. Alternative names considered for the car were Sprint, P3000, Pegasus, Fiamma, Sunfire (a name which would later be applied to another car the Pontiac Sunfire), and Firebird XP.
All information above belongs to Wikipedia
for the original article please click this link: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pontiac_Fiero
I never thought much of the car until today but the more I look at it the more I think of it. I would one day like to own one of these cars however they are very dangerous due to their small size and are also very rare due to their average rate of production at the time. It would be nice to own one but I wouldn't really have a purpose for it other than a collectors piece.
Due to the fact that modern drivers are unpredictable, reckless and quite stupid. Along with considering how rare these cars are, it wouldn't be more than just an average "Weekend driver". Sense I will be driving in two years from now (as of right now I am only 14) its something I have thought of looking for with my recent discovery of this car. Many would call me crazy for even thinking of owning such a car however I would say its a privilege to own such an elegant vehicle of its magnitude.
Posted by JGZILLA98 - August 30th, 2013
Scanty & Kneesocks.exe is an animation/music video I am working on but will take time and has forced me to put my Madness cartoon on hold as this project is much more important to me. In terms of the animation itself, its more of a music video if anything but a very sadistic and fucked up one and it will show my true insanity.
Its gonna be a fucking bloodbath.
I will also not feature any screenshots of the animation/music video.
But I will have cover art for it ready soon and I will post it when its done.
That is all for now.
UPDATE: I really like the new transformer I got a few days ago and it will make a great addition to my collection and will look great on my shelf. If you know me as well as I do, I am really into transformers.
I always enjoyed the original cartoon from the 80s, but every other modern adaptation of them never ended well. However the Transformers: War For Cybertron games were very faithful to the original show and the new one Transformers: Fall Cybertron was the best out of the two.
Okay now for the update well the animation itself has made some good progress but lately I have not been able to find time to work on it (because of Fucking school) and has been put on hold. I have many projects I haven't even started yet but as of now this one in particular will be put on high priority on my list of current projects.
Oh and will leave you an image of my new Transformer.
I KNOW I AM (sort of) A NERD, DEAL WITH IT.
That is all for now.
Posted by JGZILLA98 - August 22nd, 2013
Well anyway i have been busy reading Manga stories and stuff but some things need to be said.
Sorry i have been very inactive its because i have been busy with some stories and art that i have been working on,
Also i have been busy with an anime that i really enjoy.
The name of the show is , it is a show about two angel sisters Panty & Stocking Anarchy who were kicked out of heaven for bad behavior.
Panty is a reckless blonde whore who enjoys sex with men or women and Stocking a Violet/pink haired masochist who enjoys sweets. They were kicked out of heaven for bad behavior causing complete anarchy all over heaven and are forced to live with a black priest Garterbelt (who hates them) a homosexual masochist who own the church they live in and must fight the demons of hell so that can make enough heavens coins to go back to heaven.
Yes I know it sounds extremely stupid but at least give it a chance before being judgmental.
I will leave links to the first episode, I will leave two links. One will have the original Japanese version with subtitles by Gainax.
The other link will be the English version by Funimation which is the one i recommend more mainly because its much better than reading subtitles and is much more easier to enjoy along some decent voice acting (in my opinion).
WARNING THE SHOW IS VERY VULGAR AND GRAPHIC, IS NOT RECOMMENDED FOR SMALL CHILDREN.
Japanese version(Gainax) : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WitSzfuTM00
English version (Funimation) :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORCes7h8Nhs
I will also leave a link to the wiki if you want to learn more about the show and its characters.
One more thing if you want to make fun of me and criticize me for a show that i like go right ahead because i honestly don't give a shit but at least make your criticism constructive so you don't look like a jackass. Also i will leave you a picture of the protagonist below just to give you an idea of what to expect from the show.
Okay that is it for now.