Anyone who sees this may not remember me but it has been a while since I have done anything so time to see what is new.
For those that do remember me I am sorry I was gone for so long as I suffered from extreme deep depression last time I was here but I am better now and hope to maybe post stuff again.
I don't really know why I am here I must have gotten lost.
After thinking I decided to stop giving a shit about what the future holds and what I have now.
Saturday, January, 04, 2014
Sanity has been compromised, ability to reason has been compromised, rationality has been compromised, control is lost, new objective has been found.
All form of rational thinking has been terminated.
I am losing my mind and nothing makes sense anymore, why the hell do I even type this shit its not like anyone gives a damn. I am just a pathetic mess that can't function in society because everyone treats me like shit and ignore my needs and when I mean by needs I don't mean stupid ass smartphones or dumbass tablets. When I mean needs I mean actual needs, not luxuries, needs. Life does nothing but take away every opportunity it gives me. Its not that I am not trying its that I never get a break from these voices in my head that do nothing but provide misery and torture. I never understand why I expect typing this shit online as some way of helping my pain but yet it doesn't help but I do it anyway for attention even though I hate getting attention. What is my malfunction and why do I bother?
You know what fuck it, fuck society, fuck humanity and fuck you. Do not be like me and move on with your lives.
Well now that I am back from the hospital and I feel like shit but hey its better than being locked up for so long but anyway here is a screenshot from my latest cartoon.
This is a log of a session of the voices in my head. All this was being documented during the session.
me: Forgive me...forgive...
voices: I hate you.
me: NO NO NO MAKE THE PAIN STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
voices: I don't want to.
me: STOP SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
me: STOP LAUGHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
voices: I want you to hear your sanity die.
me: YOU CAN'T TELL ME WHAT TO HEAR!!!
voices: Well that isn't very fair.
me: FUCK YOU!!!
voices: hear me crying to death.
me: MAKE YOUR INVALID CRYS, THEY MEAN NOTHING TO ME BECAUSE I HATE YOU AND YOU ARE NOT
voices: Then why do you listen?
me: GOD DAMN IT! YOU MAKE ME DO IT AGAINST MY WILL YOU SICK BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
voices: You never had free will you silly willy.
me: FUCK YOU!!!
voices: What is with you and your obsession with Kneesocks?
me: She is a fictional character that I enjoy and nothing more.
voices: You know you are obsessed and you are denying it.
me: I AM NOT!!!
voices: Then why do you have so many pictures of her?
me: she was my favorite character from the show Panty and Stocking with Garterbelt.
voices: Why do you need so many pictures of her?
me: I enjoy the character and I usually use them for myself to do as I please.
voices: So this requires to have shitloads of pictures of her from other artist?
me: I like to enjoy the artwork of others and I never claim it as my own so Fuck off, I separate the ones I do from others and I mostly use them for reference when I am drawing her.
voices: Cut this artist bullshit, you are no real artist!
me: I have my share of originality, Fuck you anyway, most of my thoughts base around originality.
voices: You suck at drawing anyway.
me: That's an opinion you cum whore.
voices: suck a fat dick.
me: Shut up you worthless voice, GET OUT OF MY DAMN HEAD!!!
voices: But I love Fucking with your head and enjoy invading with your private thoughts, especially the ones of Kneesocks
and other things like Sloan Morley and your other ideas.
me: DON'T FUCK WITH SLOAN MORLEY!!!
voices: Mr. Morley is your creation?
me: Sloan Morley is a fictional character made by me, he is a guardian of my thoughts and is a character I enjoy using for
things, HE IS JUST A CHARACTER AND NOTHING MORE.
voices: I will destroy your sanity.
me: You can't because your not real.
unknown voices: Destroying evil gives us life, and makes us stronger. Unleash us when you hear our call. We will pass the
life force of those we slay to you. We foresee a great battle, but the outcome is not clear. We are the only way to destroy
Hell's mightiest warrior.
voices: Who is this?
unknown voices: your end.
me: FUCKING HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
voices: Throughout this, Jerry will experiences instances of blurred red vision, usually accompanied by evil laughter or
Also, in early stages, when Jerry looks into a mirror he sees a vision of himself starting to become a zombie. These
incidents are possibly the result of the demons' unsuccessful attempts to possess him.
NOW LEAVE US.
me: I AM AN ATHEIST I DON'T BELIEVE IN THAT SHIT!!!
unknown voices: I am sorry but please know I care.
me: THEN HELP ME YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!!!
unknown voices: I must go, I am sorry.
voices: These unknown voices are enraging me.
me: FUCK YOU!!!
voices: You are no threat to me you pathetic bastard.
me: I WILL DESTROY YOUR PRESENCE, WE ARE IN MY HEAD NOT YOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CONTROL ME NOT
voices: Go back to your Kneesocks fetishes.
me: PISS OFF SHE IS JUST A CARTOON CHARACTER AND NOTHING MORE!!!
voices: And Sloan Morley?
me: HE IS MY OWN ORIGNAL CHARACTER NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
voices: Wasting time with fictional characters is stupid.
me: NO ITS NOT!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!
voices: You bore me, anyway I am done for now. See you in two days as usual.
me: GREAT NOW GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!
voices: Bye shithead.
me: Bye cocksucker, At least now my sanity is returning to me.
The log ends here with no further communication between me and the voices.
Aftermath notes: Due to me not feeling well I have decided to seek mental help at a hospital to be evaluated to find out what is the problem.
As for animation I have a screenshot of my progress.
That is all for now.
My father bought me a "Black Dragon" katana sword. It is a very beautiful sword and will look great on my wall.
The blade of the sword is 440 stainless steel with an aesthetic hamon down the edge of the blade. The blade has already been sharpened and features a push tang design.The scabbard of the sword is high polished black lacquered aluminum. The scabbard features a cord wrapped sage-o, and two golden fittings. The first golden fitting is an ornate end cap depicting a roaring dragon head at the end of the scabbard. The second golden fitting is at the scabbard throat and depicts 2 fighting dragons.The guard of the sword and the blade collar are also both golden. The guard of the sword highly detailed golden dragon wrapped around the blade of the sword. The handle traces four oriental scenes separated by the scales of the dragon. The pommel of the sword ends in the opened mouth dragon head.
This is the Open Mouth Dragon Style Sword. Few swords can compare to the intricate detail, the beauty, or the smooth handling of this sword. This highly detailed well sought after piece is a classic in the making.
Blade Material:440 Stainless Steel
Overall Length:42 Inches
Blade Length:28.5 Inches
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(car below: 1969 Chevy Chevelle)